shout. shout. let it all out.

Tear For Fears.  who didn't enjoy at least one of their songs back in the day?  whatever.  shut up liar.

i've realised that in the few weeks that have elapsed since my "journey of self-discovery" that i seem to have started a slide back towards a more negative outlook on life - and that is not good.  luckily i have recognised it and i can take steps to reverse it.

the first step is that i am going to try and be more self-aware.  if i find myself getting frustrated or angry about something, i need to stop and ask myself why it is happening and then see if there isn't a different emotion that would be better suited to handle the situation - like maybe laughing?  i know, it might not always work, but most of the time when i am getting angry it has to do with another person or their actions to be more accurate, and i think laughing at it instead will be better for me (and it might serve the added bonus of frustrating them - lol).

as for right now, what i am doing is taking the half-day off i had scheduled to go to the Pete Yorn concert in columbia, and just having a relaxing, 70 degree, late october afternoon with the top down on the car; running errands and just generally relaxing.  granted i would have like to see Pete Yorn, but my ankle is still too jacked up from the fall last week to handle a concert - or at least handle a concert and enjoy it.  

a nice relaxing afternoon will do just fine though, and that's what i'm off to do...